Isang Taon nang walang si Nida

Isang Taon nang wala si Nida... Ngayong Araw ipinagdiriwang ng aming pamilya ang 60th Birthday ni Mama [Nida]. Isang taon, napakabilis lumipas ng panahon pero hanggang ngayon hindi ko parin alam kung paano mag-adjust, hindi parin nag sy-synch-in lahat ng bagay. Totoo nga, nakapahirap mag move-on, but I dont have any choice I just have move forward. 

Alam niyo, dati life has been very easy, kasi I know that there's someone with me in this journey. Now, life shifted 360 degrees, yung akala kong buhay na napakadali, turns out madali lang kasi may kasama ako, may umaalalay sa tabi ko.

My Mom has always been my best friend, we can talk about life for 2 or more hours sa harap ng dinner table, while walking after church, minsan may mga bangayan pa nga kami pag nanunuod ng movies kung sino ba ang pipillin ng bida. She's the kind of person na sasabayan ka sa trip mo, but she's also my best enemy, you know yung days na may planned trip ka, "off to somewhere" ang datingan then here she comes my biggest kontrabida of all time, appeared. That's what I'm missing now, ngayon I have to think smart at all times, ang hirap kaya non— budget, savings, groceries, planning, house maintenance, biglaang utility expenses na wala sa budget, plus may mga things pa na I want to buy but out of the allotted budget. It's very very frustrating, I was forced to be an adult. Lagi kong binibida sa mga nakakausap ko na "I was trained to be An Adult", "Noon palang tinuturuan na akong maging independent ni Mama", pero in real life di ako handa na biglang tapos na pala ang masterclass at sasabak na ako sa real world scenarios.

Now, To think of it. I feel like I am coping, I don't know how long will my plans could last but at least dala ko lahat ng values, lessons, words of wisdom, and affirmation na iniwan ni Mama. It gives me something to hold on to. I'm just 18 and the world is big enough to explore. 

Things are just starting up. There might be a chapter that needs to end, but there's a lot to be seen. Mom, look your kid is more than better than before.

Happiest 60th Birthday, Mom!